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Friday, May 27th, 2005
6:26 am - Its been awhile...
Ok so haven't had that much time to come on here and tell everyone my buisness...lol. Well today I didn't go to school cuz my brother had a field trip and my mom didn't feel like wakin up extra early and driving all around to take us to school so I stayed home. :) I am pissed off because I want to go to the movies today to see the new movie The Longest Yard. That shit is goin to be so hilarious and a really good movie since Nelly, Goldberg, Stone Cold, Adam Sandler, AND Chris Rock are in it. I was suppose to be goin to see it but fucking people braking what they say and then goin to see it wit other people! Aaaaahh fucking pisses me off. But anyways...there is always karma :) But I want to see that movie today and I want to get the fuck out of my house. I am ready to drive my dad into the wall with a nail. So if anyone want to go to the movies today email me or call me....I NEED to get the fuck out of this house...lol.
Now I am goin to curl my hair and look all pretty...lol. I just got done bleachin it but I am goin to do it again because I want it to be a lighter brown. ok Talk to yall peeps later :)

current mood: but happy too :)

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Sunday, May 8th, 2005
8:54 pm - ###Cell phone###
My uncle said he is goin to get me a cellphone. I really hope he is not lying....I really want a cellphone. It is goin to be awesome to have one. Now I can talk to all my friends late at nite without my damn mother yelling at me and I will be able to talk to my friend and watch t.v show with having to watch the side of the t.v instead and having everyone listen to your converstation. So it will be awesome. He better not be fuckin lying...I will be so pissed. So yeah..but I am excited. :)

current mood: excited

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8:43 pm - +++Church+++
I went to church on Friday. We were in Gym on firday hanging out with Daly and she invited me and Daniella to go to church with her. Daniella didn't get to go but my friend Luisa got to come. We had to lie to get parents because her dad doesn't like Xiomara. So we said we were goin to go with my friend. So yeah around 6:40 we walked to her house. I was glad Luisa got to come because I didn't want to walk to her house by myself and didn't want to sit there by myself while Daly and Xiomara were doing there dance. We sat at her house for awhile and just talked. On the way there it was funny. Xiomara and Daly kept havin me and Luisa laughing. They are so crazy...lol. When we got there we met everyone. Then we sat down and the lady started praying. It was in spanish church so everything was in spanish. Daly had to translate it to me. They thought we were talking. Then the guy said the next time they will have a translator for me. I feel so special...lol. Then they played some music and the people were singing. Daly sister Yeni was up there singing. I also got to meet her boyfriend. He seems really nice. Then Daly and Xiomara and some other girls did a dance. It was cool. Then the guy was talkin about life and God and all that. Not goin to go into all that detial but it was cool.
When we were driving home they were messing with me. They were messing with me alot with Carlos the whole nite. There was this one song and the guy kept saying God is watching you...because Daly sister listens to christian music and that is it. Well Xiomara was changing the song messing with me singin...God is watching over you at 3 in the morning ...going to brake that light bulb. She would not stop singin that...lol. She is crazy. When we got home Luisa's mom was all worried. My mom didn't really care...lol.
But yeah it was a cool time. But it was funny because before I left I was telling everyone where I was going they were like Church?!?!? ...lol. But yeah I might go Tuesday..hopfully my mom will say yes. I want to start goin alot. It seems fun. So yeah....I am goin to go eat now....laters...

current mood: happy

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Sunday, April 10th, 2005
4:58 am - ......v...v....v.....
Today was a cool day. First me, Kayla and Cristie sat by the pool to try to get a tan...I am so damn white...lol. Well as usually my arms got darker...but that was about it...my legs and face are still white as hell...lol. So yeah then Joel came back there...I don't know where the hell he came from. But he hung out back with us for a lil while. Then I said I want a hot fudge sundue...I want to go to Mcdonalds. Then Joel said let go and i said let go. So when my dad left my mom let me go. It was me, Joel, Carlos, and Henry.

When we came back me and Carlos hung out at the park for a lil while. I saw Totally Kyle...I haven't seen him in such a long time. He got alot taller and his voice is deeper. I kept telling him that...he was getting so annoyed...lol.

Anyways. When we came back I was showing Carlos some pics of my family and when I was lil and when my mom and dad were lil. Pics of my friends...shit like that. Then we all just hung out for a bit. I was being all crazy. I learner how to say u broke my heart into lil pieces. So I kept saying that to everyone.

Then my mom and dad and all the other people decided to go fishing so I got to stay home all by myself...lol. No brother, mother or anything like that. The lady next door asked if I wanted to stay over there with her and I was like no thanks. Hell no..I want to be left alone. I washed my clothes and bedsheets. I try to clean but Joel and Carlos started banging on the window trying to scare me...assholes...lol. They said they were bored...weirdos...havin nothing better to do..lol. I hung out with Joel for a little bit. It was like a really serious talk about my life and shit. It was really cool..because I can have conversations with him that is hard for me to talk about with other people. He is so much like a brother to me. He is like the big brother I always wanted. It is hard to explain but that is how I feel about Joel. He is really cool. I made him some food to eat. Then the perv was watching porn on computer...lol.

Yeah after all that and everyhing. I went to go to sleep but then Carlos knocked on my window...so I went out and hung out with him for a lil while. And now here I am...lol. I am about to go to bed because it is almost fuckin 5:30. So later....

current mood: happy

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Friday, April 8th, 2005
1:47 pm - ...X...X.......
I didn't go to school today...YAY..lol. I needed a break...just to sleep in.
I think I have been so tired because of the daylight saving shit..losing an hour sleep and shit...
hey that really catches up to you. Well anyways...the movie was really good. I loved it. Now I am starting to like boxing more. It was a real tear jerker to..alot of the parts in the end I wanted to cry...lol. It was a really good movie. After that we went to Mcdonalds...whooohooo..lol. I love Mcdonalds and I was really hungry for a burger because in the movie the guys was eating a burger...lol. Talking about it is making me hungry for another one..lol. So today I am suppose to be changin my room around and cleaning it up because one of my moms good friends are coming down. So I have to somehow get in the mood to do all that. So goin to go before it is to late and I end up goin outside with a whole bunch of shit piled up in my room. Later...

current mood: blah

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Thursday, April 7th, 2005
5:34 pm - another day....
I hate school...I really wish I could quit without my parents goin crazy about it. Anyways...today was the same ol same ol. I am about to go to the movies with my grandma.."fun fun" ...lol. Yeah she want to take me to see this movie called the Million Dollar Baby. It is about this girl who always wanted to be a boxer ever since she was lil then she finally becomes one but dies. Yeah...she says I will like it because I like all that wrestling shit ...but to me wrestling and boxing it two diffrenet things. I don't really like boxing. But I am goin to go just to be nice because I don't really get to spend time with my gradma anymore and maybe it will be a pretty good movie since it does have fighting in it. Well anyways...I am goin to go...I did have an idea to dress all in my red fishnet and black baggie pants and wear a shit load of eyeliner just to embrass my grandma and her boyfriend...lol..but I decided this time I will be nice...lol...later.

current mood: blah

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Tuesday, April 5th, 2005
10:26 pm - I hate takin naps....
Ahhh...I am so pissed off. For some reason I have been tired..so today I went to take a nap. I woke back up around 5:30 because Carlos called me. We talked for awhile then he said he was goin to go to sleep for awhile because he stood up all nite. Like bastard not having to have to go to school. So anyways ...I firgured Luisa won't be able to come outside anyways so it would boring outside without Luisa or Carlos so I thought I go back to sleep for a little while longer. Well now I woke up at 8:30. I am so pissed because now I feel like my whole afternoon was wasted because I went to sleep. And now it is like I have to go back to sleep in a few hours to get up for school tomorrow. I fuckin hate school. And today I did not get to go outside and hang out with anyone because I had to wake up so late. I had to stay in the damn house all day and I hate that. Damn naps...never taken them again. Well ok I am done complaing about naps. I am goin to go take a nap now..lol. Yeah right. I am pissed off at naps right now..lol. I am goin to go talk to stefanie now...she got to fuckin MEET HBK!!! She is so lucky. Ok well goin to go listen to her story...later...

current mood: and bored

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Monday, April 4th, 2005
11:14 pm - A new kitty...
So our puppy didn't work out with us. But now we got a new born baby kitten. My friend Luisa found them under her car and the mother just abanded them...so they let us keep one. It is a couple of days old and it is sooo small. It is so cute. My mom let us keep it so my brother can keep his mind off the puppy. They always give him pets...damn it. Oh well i still have my pet fish name Nelly...lol. But yeah the kitten is for all of us. We haven't thought of a name yet...but I have..I don't care what they call it I am calling it Jericho..lol. I know it is a crazy name but of course I had to name it after a wrestler and that one sound the best. My dad wanted the name rocky and my mom wanted smokey...whatever they pick I am sticking with Jericho..lol. Named after the great wrestler Chris Jerhico..lol. So yeah that is the story on my new cat...later...

current mood: calm

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10:14 pm - WRESTLEMANIA!!!!!!
Yestarday was WRESTLEMANIA DAY!!! YAY...lol. So yeah...I got up and put on my HBK shirt because I was rooting for HBK...GO HBK!!! Then my mom dropped me and Carlos off to Nakita's house. We had to go around three because my mom wanted to go next door and get drunk because they were having a party....crazy white whore...lol...j/k. When we got there we walked to 7/11 because Carlos was hungry. He ended up goin to this Latin store. Me and Nakita srayed behind and just waited because us to white girls did not want to go in a place full of crazy mexicans. Well we were standing there and these 2 mexicans were like hi ladies...I just looked at Nakita with a weird look. Then one of them made like a kissing noise and I just looked at her with a weirder look. Then these other 2 mexicans came in a truck and started slowing down and I was just like oh my gosh. Then I saw Carlos and started screaming his name so they thing I was with him then I screamed save us or pimp save us...lol..because I didn't want those mexicans to say anything. Then we walked back to Nakitia house. Oh and I found out were Shanita lives. When we got back to Nakita's house Carlos was scared to go in because he is shy by peoples parents. I had to beg him to come in then hold his hand some of the way in the house...he is so weird. So we hung out there for awhile. Then we decided to go to Nicole's house and mess with her. We hung out there for a bit. My cousin Kayla is such a bitch. She like to mess around alot with my guy friends. To tell you the truth I think she likes all my guy friends. Well her and Carlos were messing around with the juice...which she started...and she spilt a lil on him and he spilt a lil on her. Then later out of nowhere she spilt like half the bottle on his white tank top. I know he was pissed...and I was veryyyy pissed. I couldn't believe she had done that. She said she did it because he did it to her...but he did it a lil bit and she was at her house so she could change...he had no extra clothes. Well he took his wet shirt off and put his sweater back on. Kayla went inside I guess she could feel people hated her at that moment. So me Nakita, Nicole and Carlos hung out a bit. I called the other Carlos to see if he was home because it was getting close to 6 and Wrestlemania was about to start. He told us to meet him by abc workshop. When we got to his house we checked out his room. He has a cool room. I loved the drum set and the pics on his wall. And then the greatest moment happened....wrestlemania started. I am not goin to go all in detail..but all I have to say it was awesome. We got really powered up on the Undertaker vs Orton match and the HBK vs. Angle match. Undertaker won ...we were all really happy with that. But HBK lost. I was pissed...but not as pissed as I thought I would be. All 3 of us were goin for HBK but Carlos. Carlos lil brother is so funny. He is like the stupid funny. I was paying more attention to Carlos and his lil brothers match instead of JBL and Cena's match. When wrestlemania was over Me and Carlos walked Nakita home and then called the taxi. I was so pissed because the taxi people would not answer. I called like 10 times. Then Carlos was like if they don't answer soon I am walking. I started getting nervous because I did not want to walk at like 11 at nite and I was suppose to be home very soon. Finally I just gave up and Me and Carlos walked home. I was nervous but really happy I had someone to walk home with. Other then that I would have been fucked. I would have crawled up in a corner on one of the dark streets and cried...lol. So I was glad to have Carlos be there with me. The walk didn't take that long. I got home around 12:21...It could have been sooner if Carlos didn't stop so much...lol. So yeah..I said good-bye to him...watch a lil of wrestlemania 17 that the other Carlos let me borrow..had to see the HOT Jeff Hardy before I went to bed...lol. So yeah..as you can see Wrestlemania was awesome for me...lol..I am so happy Carlos invited all of us to watch it. Now we are making plans to order Backlash. I can't wait to see what happens then. ok...I wrote enough now I am goin to go watch RAW...later...

current mood: happy

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Saturday, April 2nd, 2005
9:27 pm - Another Survey because I am bored.....
(1) Your gender: female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: straight
(3) Single?: yeah
(4) Want to be?: ummm...my thoughts now...a wrester or hair dresser
(5) Your birth day: May 19, 1990
(6) Age you act: ummm...depends what mood I am in
(7) Age you wish you were: again depends on my mood
(8) Your height: 5' something
(9) The color of your eyes: dark brown
(10) Happy with it?: yup
(11) The color of your hair: dark brown
(12) Happy with it?: sometimes
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: right
(14) Your living arrangement?: with my mom
(27) Your family: my mom,dad and little bro
(29) What's your job: right now going to school...damn I hate that job...wish my mom would let me quit that job...lol.
(30) Piercings?: nope
(31) Tattoos?: not yet
(32) Obsessions?: ummm...Wrestling and Hot guys...lol
(35) Do you speak another language? not really...but I can speak a lil spanish
(36) Have a favorite quote? ummm...there a few I can't think of right now...the one on top of my head right now is Don't Hunt What you Can't Kill...I love HBK...lol.
(37) Do you have a webpage?: nope

DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?: haha...that reminds me of what The Hardys boys say.
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: wait what
(40) Do you have any secrets?: yup yup...but most are not secerts anymore
(41) Do you hate yourself?: sometimes
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: sometimes
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: yeah
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: umm...I have pretty eyes
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: ummm..I don't know
(46) What's your biggest fear?: Being on a sunken ship in the middle of the ocean...or like AJ said losing someone you reallllly love.
(47) Can you sing: not really
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: no
(49) Are you a loner?: no
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: probably not...unless I like wrestling...then I think I would get along with me
(52) Are you a daredevil?: not really
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: yes but don't feel like writing it
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: I don’t know
(55) Have you got a ?: what?
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? don't know
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: ummm..my hair because it sucks
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: love
(59) How do you vent?: what?
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: not really
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: I try not to vent on the past
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: at some parts...others fuckin suck
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: ummm..not sure right now
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: ummm...my boobs...lol...many compliements with them..lol
(65) And least?: ummm..my hair
(66) Do you think you are good looking?:ummm..sometimes
(67) Are you confident?: at times
(68) What is the fictional character you're most like?: ummm..don't know...what do you think
69) Do people know how you feel?: no...that is one thing i hate about me....I don't tell people how I feel
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: what?

DO YOU...
(71) Smoke?: no
(72) Do drugs?: no
(73) Read the newspaper?: no
(74) Pray?: yes
(75) Go to church? no
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: sometimes
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: no
(78) Take walks in the rain?: sometimes
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: sometimes
(80) Drive?: not yet...damn my father not teaching me how to drive yet...lol.
(81) Like to drive fast?: havent had a chance to drive yet

HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice?: I don’t really pay attentions to it
(83) Hurt yourself?: not on purpose but I always find some way of hurting myself
(84) Been out of the country?: no
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: I don’t know
(86) Burped?: of course
(87) Been unfaithful?: ummm...not sure of the question
(88) Been in love?: I don’t know really
(89) Done drugs?: no
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: no
(92) Had a surgery?: yes
(93) Ran away from home?: no
(94) Played strip poker: no
(95) Gotten beaten up?: no
(97) Been picked on?: yeah
(98) Been on stage?: yep
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: no
(100) Slept outdoors?: no
(101) Thought about suicide?: yes
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: yes
(103) If yes, what is your record?: can't remember
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: yes
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: no
(107) Slept all day?: yep
(108) Killed someone?: no...but thought of it
(109) Made out with a stranger?: no
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: no
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: sometimes
(112) Kissed the same sex?: no
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no
(114) Been betrayed?: yes
(115) Had a dream that came true?: yeah
(116) Broken the law?: no
(117) Met a famous person?: yes
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: no
(146) Stolen anything?: yes
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: yes
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: damn it no...but i want to so bad!!!!
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: almost
(150) Considered religious vocation?: wait what?
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: wait what again?
(152) Bungee jumped?: no
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: yeah

CLOTHES and other fashion
(154) Shoe brand?: doesn't really matter but a perfer RBK ....no not tryin to say HBK...lol
(155) Brand of clothing?: doesn't matter to me as long as it looks good
(156) Cologne/perfume?: as long as it smells good fine by me
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: jeans and some type of tshirt
(159) Wear hats?: no
(161) Wear make-up?: eyeliner and foundation
(162) Favorite place to shop?: Hottopic
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: ummm...not sure
(164) Are you trendy?: ummm..I don't think so
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: nope

BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets?: not sure about that one yet
(167) Miracles?: at times
(168) Astrology?: what
(169) Magic?: sometimes
(170) God?: yes
(171) Satan?: yes
(172) Santa?: nope
(173) Ghosts?: yes
(174) Luck?: yes
(175) Love at first sight?: ummmm...don't know
(176) Yin and Yang?: what is that?
(177) Witches?: no
(178) Easter bunny?: nope
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: u have to be very determined
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: I wish there was one
(181) Do you wish on stars?: i have before

LOVE, and all that
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: no
(183) Do you remember your first love?: havent been there
(184) Still love him/her?: dont have one
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: I don’t know
(186) What do you find romantic?: ummm...a sweet guy who stays who he is and not puts on an act around his friends.
(187) Turn-on?: long air or sexy voice or sexy eyes...and being bitten or sucked on the neck...lol.
(188) Turn-off?: jerks, cockyness
(189) Do you base your judgment on looks alone: sometimes
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: don't know
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: knowing
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: not really...I am to shy to ask a guy out
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: yes
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: i don’t know
(205) What is best about the opposite sex?: You can beat them up for fun and they won't get all bitchy...lol..and some other things.
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: can be way to stupid for there own good and such jerks sometimes
(207) What's the last present someone gave you? a slushi :) ...lol..yeah I know stupid present but they said it was a present
(208) Are you in love?: no
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: not really
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: lol..probably freak out...i am weird like that...lol.

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(211) That haunted you?: I don’t think anyone has ever haunted me
(212) You wanted to kill?: Todd
(213) That you laughed at?: Kayla
(214) That laughed at you?: Luisa
(215) That turned you on?: no comment
(216) You went shopping with?: my aunt and grandma
(217) That broke your heart?: so many people
(218) To disappoint you?: many people
(219) To ask you out?: This dude but forgot his name...I think it was angel...ugly name..for a boy...lol especially and ugly one..lol.
(220) To make you cry?: many people
(221) To brighten up your day?: many people..lol.
(222) That you thought about?: many people
(223) You saw a movie with?: ummm.Nicole and Brent
(224) You talked to on the phone?: Joel
(225) You talked to through IM?: AJ
(226) You saw?: Luisa
(227) You lost?: Grandpa
(229) You thought was completely insane?: to many..lol
(230) You wanted to be?: ummm..Lita or someone with at Hot bf...lol..j/k ME
(231) You told off?: no one...but soon it will be Jessica
(232) You trusted?: i don't know anymore
(233) You turned down?: ummm...don't know

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: earlier today
(235) Laughed?: earlier today
(236) Cried?: yestarday
(237) Bought something?: ummm..sometime last week
(238) Danced?: today...me and my mom were going crazy...lol.
(239) Were sarcastic?: don't remember
(240) hugged someone?: today
(241) Talked to an ex?: today
(242) Watched your fave movie?: ummm..don't remember
(243) Had a nightmare?: don't remember
(245) Talked on the phone?: just a couple of minutes ago
(246) Listened to the radio?: right now
(247) Watched TV?: a couople of ours ago
(248) Went out?: this afternoon and waiting for joel so I can go out again
(249) Helped someone?: don't remember
(250) Were mean?: don't remember..but to some people I am always mean...lol..shut up luisa and kayla..lol
(251) Sang?: earlier...told you me and my mom went crazy...lol
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: awhile ago
(253) Said "I love you"?: earlier...Joel made me tell him that I loved him..lol..he is crazy
(254) Missed someone?: alway
(255) Fought with a family member?: I think always every hour
(256) Fought with a friend?: now..always
(257) Had a serious conversation?: don't remember
(258) Got drunk?: never
(259) Had sex?: ummmmmm

current mood: but a bit happy

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9:18 pm - WRESLEMANIA!!!!!
YAY....tomorrow is wrestlemania!!! I can't wait. I am going to go to Carlos house tomorrow to watch it...it is going to be so awesome. I think it is goin to be me, Carlos, Carlos, Nakitia and Jessica. I can't wait to watch it. I get to see HBK beat the shit out of Angle....HE BETTER!!!! ...lol. I loooove WRESTLEMANIA...lol! My friend Stefanie is so lucky...she left yestarday morning to L.A. She is seeing it live. I think on Friday she was goin to RVD's comic book shop to meet RVD and Bret Hart...so lucky and today she went to the Hall of Fame...lucky! She better have told Shawn Michaels I love him...lol. And she is staying at the same hotel as the wreslter....again lucky. And tomorrow of course she gets to go to the grandest stage of them all and the next nite she is goin to see raw...agaiinnn LUCKY...lol! I am so happy for her though. It is great.
So yeah tomorrow need to get here fast. This can help me forget about some of the things for about 4 hours and just keep my mind on wrestling...lol. So...yeah...I am goin to go before I start repeatin on how excited I am...lol. So you get the picture. Later....GO HBK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Renee :)

current mood: and a bit stressed

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9:05 pm - Life just gets harder
Well haven't been on in awhile....so much goin on now a days. It seems life gets harder and harder each day. Sometimes I wish I could just go to sleep and never wake up. I just feel so stressed out with things right now. It is like nothing ends....you try to forget one thing but another issue comes up and it is so hard to forget about. And you think that one minute you can trust someone and then they turn their back on you. Like stone cold said...DTA...don't trust anyone! He is very right about that. You can't trust anyone anymore. Everything is just so stressful right now. I wish I could push everything away or just somehow get away from it....even if it is just for a little while. Well going to go take a shower and drown it all away...later....

Renee

current mood: and annoyed

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Saturday, March 19th, 2005
11:27 pm - Slipknot!!!!
Today I was bored so I told my uncle to give me money. I wasen't serious but he gave it to me anyways so I was like ok...lol. He gave me $20. And then I was just sitting there and out of nowhere I said omg I have money to go to the Slipknot concert. I was soooooooo happy. Then my uncle said he would take me. He gave me money to buy his ticket. But I wasen't sure if he was lying to me or not because sometimes he is veryyyy hard to trust. But I want to go so bad. If I have to take a taxi I will I want to go so bad. Carlos told me he will let me borrow one of their cds so I can no more songs than just their new songs. I can't wait because I want to go so bad. I want to see Joey Jordison so bad...so HOTTTTTTTTT...lol!!!! I really hope I can go. I will walk there if I have to...lol.

current mood: excited

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11:17 pm - Ginger.......
Well...I haven't been on for awhile but yeah...still having problems with my damn next door neighbor...jerk as fuckin always. Well we also got a dog. But she didn't last. She was soooo cute. She was like a carmel color with white down her face....and she was so small she is so cute. We named her ginger. And yeah...we had he for about a week, but then my dad said we had to get rid of her because she was chewin up everythig. But now my uncle friend has her so that is cool.

current mood: calm

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Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
4:34 pm
-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend]: I geuss so

-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone]: Nicole
[hugged]: Carlos
[you instant messaged]: Carlos
[you laughed with]: Nicole

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[could you live without the computer?]: nope
[what's your favorite food?]: Chinease food or Italian
[whats ur favorite fruit?]: Bananas
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?]: Emotional
[trust others way too easily?]: sometimes

-N U M B E R-
[of times i have had my heart broken?]: to many to count
[of hearts i have broken?]: don't think I broke any
[of girls i have kissed?]: none
[of tight friends?]: a few [of cd's that i own?]: to many to count
[of scars on my body?]: one I think
[of things in my past that i regret?]: some things

-O.T.H.E.R.T.H.I.N.G.S.
[i know]: Jeff Hardy is hot...lol.
[i want]: a job and Jeff Hardy
[i need]: Money and Jeff Hardy..lol..ok I'll stop with all the jeff Hardy..lol.
[i have]: things
[i wish]: people would stay out of my business and to meet HBK and Jeff Hardy
[i hate]: people in my business
[i miss]: old times
[i fear]: my life is goin to be ruined very soon
[i hear]: voices in my head..lol.
[i search]: for a way to make things better and for Jeff Hardy..lol
[i care]: about friedns/family
[i always]: talk about wrestling and do stuff I can't think of right now
[i dance]: ummm..I dk
[i cry]: when I am realllly angry
[i do not always]: ummm..do things
[i write]: about things
[i confuse]: alot of people
[i can usually be found]: outside
[if so, when and with who]: with Carlos, Luisa, Javier, or Kayla
[favorite place to be kissed?]: Lips or neck
[have you ever been caught "doing something"]: yeah

ARE YOU A:
[wuss]: sometimes
[druggie]: No
[gang member]: No
[daydreamer]: Yes
[alcoholic]: nope
[freak]: Dont think so
[brat]: no, but ive been told i am
[sarcastic]: yes
[goody-goody]: nope
[devil]: No
[friend]: yeah
[shy]: sometimes
[talkative]: I can be
[adventurous]: sometimes
[intelligent]: not at all
1)Using song titles, spell out your name:

R- Ridiculous (POD)
E- Execute the Sounds (POD)
N- Never there (Hoobastank)
E- Everybody's fool ( Evanescence)
E- Eternal (POD)


2) Have you ever had a song written about you? no
3) What song makes you cry? ummm..can't think of any right now
4) What song makes you happy? some...one is Alive by POD
5) What do you like to listen to before bed? POD or Slipknot

a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: ummm..somewhere around the 5
HAIR COLOR: Brown
SKIN COLOR: Pale
EYE COLOR: brown
PIERCINGS: nope
TATTOOS: not yet


r i g h t n o w
WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? blue jeans
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: The Nameless- Slipknot
WHAT TASTE IS IN YOUR MOUTH?: plain ol air
WHAT'S THE WEATHER LIKE?: pretty cold and a bit wet because it just rained
HOW ARE YOU? a lil depressed right now

d o y o u
GET MOTION SICKNESS?: nope
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: yes
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: most of the time
LIKE TO DRIVE?: I don't drive yet..but once I do I am sure I will like it.

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: Wrestling
CONDITIONER: one that smells pretty...lol
BOOK: Ummm..ones about wrestlers
MAGAZINE: Wrestling...lol.
NON-ALCOHOLIC DRINK: Ice Tea or coke
ALCOHOLIC DRINK: ummm..Coke with Rum is good
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: hang out with friends
BAND or GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: Fav. Band POD - Fav singer- ummm..Vince Neil- Fav rapper- Nelly

h a v e y o u
BROKEN THE LAW: no
RAN AWAY FROM HOME: nope
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: yes
EVER GONE SKINNY DIPPING: No not yet...lol..j/k
MADE A PRANK PHONE CALL: yes
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: no
FELL ASLEEP IN THE SHOWER/BATH: haha no
BEEN IN A SCHOOL PLAY: yeah
LET A FRIEND CRY ON YOUR SHOULDER: yeah

l o v e
BOYFRIEND: if I had one
GIRLFRIEND: sorry don't do that
SEXUALITY: straight
CHILDREN: not yet
CURRENT CRUSH: none of your business!!! ...lol
HAD A HARD TIME GETTING OVER SOMEONE: yeah
BEEN HURT?: yes
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: none of your business...haha
GONE OUT WITH SOMEONE YOU ONLY KNEW FOR A DAY: no

r a n d o m
DO YOU HAVE A JOB: nope
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: Slipknot
IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE?: purple
WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY?: Being around friends and wrestling
WHO MAKES YOU THE HAPPIEST?: some of my friends...Nicole, Felicia, Carlos, Carlos, Maryanne, Nakita..etc.
WHAT'S THE NEXT CD YOU'RE GONNA GET?:ummm..if POD comes out with their new cd anytime soon then that
WHAT DO YOU LIKE TO DO?: fun stuff, crazy stuff

w h e n / w h a t w a s t h e l a s t
TIME YOU CRIED?: a couple of days ago
YOU GOT A REAL LETTER?: last month
YOU GOT E-MAIL: a couple of minutes ago
THING YOU PURCHASED: ummm..a wwe magazine
TV PROGRAM YOU WATCHED: Ummm.. Fresh Prince of Belair...Will smith is sooo funny and so hot!!!..lol
MOVIE YOU SAW AT THE THEATER: Boogeyman

current mood: a lil bit happy

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Sunday, February 27th, 2005
9:47 pm - .......
Today was ok. In the night we played Dodge ball...I kicked ass..lol..well at least dodging from the ball. I am not a very good throwing the ball at the people. But in the first game...all my team mate were out but me...I felt so special. ...lol..But it took forever for people to get me out. Through the whole game I was only out for 2 time...while everyone else got out like 4 times...lol..yeah I felt special...lol.
And YAY!!!! I finally found a job. I am so happy. I nnneeeddd money so bad. I want to buy alot of things and a need to save up for the Royal rumble. Yeah..so how I got the job. We got some new neighbors and the are like so cool...lol. Well they have a lil girl and the guy was talkin to me saying they like to go out on weekends and party and stuff and that they can barely go out because they have a lil girl...so they asked me if I would like to babysit for them. So of course I said sure...because I reallly need money now. So yeah..the first money I get for them I am goin to buy my Crow blanket!!! ...YAY!!! ...lol.
Well g2g...mom is getting all mad...laters...

current mood: happy

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2:08 am - .......
I am bored right now. Today was boring...not much went on. Yestarday I was talkin to Maryanne on the phone and found out alot of crazy shit. We found out that are dads were good friends with each other and I found out that Tanya...someone you people don't know but still...lol..I know...that is her cousin...weird. And we found out alot of other weird shit. It was real crazy. Yeah and we found out that she knows my dickface neighbor...so next weekend she is goin to come over my house and we are goin to freak him out because he is goin to wonder why the hell Maryanne is friends with me because to him a am a slut and a no good person. Fuckin bitch!!! But anyways...yeah my ear hurts really bad...damn people have to yell in it for some reason..don't know what their problem is. And yeah I guess now I will go eat some pizza and watch t.v since no one is online..laters...

current mood: bored

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Thursday, February 24th, 2005
9:45 pm - XFUCKIN NEIGHBORX!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH I hate my fuckin neighbor!!!!! He is such a fuckin jerk. He is always fuckin messing with my..fucking dick! OK BREATHE!!!!!!!!!
Ok this is how it started. Brandon was riding the bike and for some reason he let go and did a ghost ride. Well the bike hit my next door neighbor's car (his name is Todd) and he came up to Brandon and started screamin at him. Then he went up to Carlos and started screaming at him. Then he said I am about ready to kick you guys ass...I am not scared to go back to jail for u guys. I was just like wtf is he getting all crazy about. And it was all an accident...Brandon said he was sorry.
Then he goes to me and says your dad has no sense for letting you hang out with them. Then I got sooo fuckin pissed because he has no right to say that. So I go to him it is none of your buisness for who I hang out with..and he goes just shut your mouth and I was said no these are my friends. And he goes you have a problem go get your dad. I said I will and he will kick your ass again. Then he was like go get you dad go get him. then he said I don't want you punks on my yard again. So I said so keep your daughter off my lawn. Then his wife goes...SHUT UP RENEE SHUT UP! Then I said FUCKIN BITCH!!! And my mom was like wtf what happened. I told her the story and she is like don't worry about it...don't say anything else. I stayed inside a lil longer then he come at the door and he goes get your dad and I told my dad but he didn't answer so I said haha he doesn't want to talk to you. Then my mom said I don't want to talk right now I want to enjoy my b-day. So I said they don't want to talk to you right now so leave. Then I slam the door shut. Then he comes and bangs on it and I yell oooohh we are scared now. Then I said go get a fuckin life. OMG I was sooo fuckin mad. Then he finally left. I went back outside and he goes you rifrat and then said you guys aren't going to be hangin out here anymore and I said we can hang out here is we want you live here not just you!!! URGGGG I HATE HIM.
Then i go back in and tell my mom and while go back in he goes brat....omg I want to slap him. I want to burn his house down but I am fuckin connected to it..it sucks!!!! So then my mom called the cops for harrasment because he is always bothering me and always trying to get me in truouble. Like one time he went to tell my dad that I had sex behind the car...I was like WTF!!!! He is such a dick!
Yeah so when the cops came I told the him what happen...then he talked to Todd and when he came back he talked to us more and I felt like he was taking Todd side. Fuckin cops I hate them.
So yeah the rest on the night I was a bit happy but now the my fuckin headache hurt more...ahhh! I hate him!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I know it is wrong to hate people...but hey he give me a good reason. But yeah other than that jerk...my day was cool! I still want to kick his ass tho!!!
Well g2g...need to find a way to get rid of this headache...later....

current mood: pissed off

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9:35 pm - My mommy's b-day
Hey Hey Hey...to day is my mommy's b-day! YAY! And so is Wuv's. He is the drummer from POD and he is HOT!!!...lol. Best drummer in the world.
Yeah...we went to public to get my mom a cake. We were goin to get the one where u can put the picture you want on it and put Rick Springfeild on it...but the damn decorator person wasen't there and it cost like 24 dollors. I was like what that fuck! Every year I tried to get my mom that..a cake with Rick Springfield on it and I can never do it. I am so pissed. Well anyways...we got her another cake and some birthday stuff.
We came home and got it ready and for some reason I got really tired so I took a nap...but when I woke up a had a fuckin bad ass headache. I still have it and it hurt sooooooo bad. I took 3 asprins and it is still here!!! Yeah so we ordered pizza and had cake and now just hanin out. So it was a pretty cool night besides what happened with our next door nieghbor but that is another story.
Well goin to eat some cake *sings Happy Birthday* Later...

current mood: and a bit happy

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Wednesday, February 23rd, 2005
9:37 pm - haha....

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Name / Username
What you liked about the guy : his bedsheets , woooooohooooo
What he liked about you ; your long legs
How long did the sex last : 2 hours
Are ya pregnant? : Yes , I forget a condom , oh well
Would you do it again though? : just give me the time and place
Remeber : THIS IS JUST FOR FUN , IF YOU ARE OFFENDED , PLEASE DON'T BE!!!!
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Name / Username
What you liked about the guy : His butt
What he liked about you ; your money
How long did the sex last : half hour
Are ya pregnant? : Yes , I forget a condom , oh well
Would you do it again though? : just give me the time and place
Remeber : THIS IS JUST FOR FUN , IF YOU ARE OFFENDED , PLEASE DON'T BE!!!!
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Lol..I did this two time and look...lol. They both came out just about the same and the both seem pretty true...most of it...lol. Just give me the time and date and I am there...lol..j/k...wait no I am not..lol! Ok i am really hyper right now..BREATHE!!!! ...lol. And omg...I better be careful because I am the dumbass that would forget the damn condom..lol..nooo I don't think I am that dumb...well wait maybe I am...lol! ok yeah I love this quiz...it is funny...and half of this seems true...lol! ok.. I am goin to go now and get a drink and try to calm down...later.....


current mood: hyper

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